20150513

10.

"If he is insecure about losing you, it means he loves you that much. And if you think that he will not hurt you and you love him the same way, then do him a favour and don't tip toe around lies" - S

13th of May 2015, 3.47am

20150429

Wishful Thinking?

I want to feel like it's okay to choose a different road at this point of my life.
Everyone has potential to do what they're ardent about in life but it just comes down to realising what it is. I may have wondered for the past 5 years, back and forth with courses, back and forth with motivation, back and forth with stress.
But, i've realised. I know what i want to do now.
I don't want to say that i've wasted or regretted the past 5 years doing 'shit' i settled for but rather all the 'shit' i've been doing are all learning experiences.
I've learnt, and now i move on.

20150423

9.

"Manipulation. One sided. Small gifts. Holidays. Big gifts. Car. Move in. Cry" - R
"Really?" - ?
"Yeah, i think that's her pattern" - R

23rd of April 2015, 5.25pm

20150407

8.

"..everything,
But it still doesn't seem right." - R

7th of April 2015, 1.02am


20150329

Mau loa


  • Iconic coconut-less palm trees everywhere we go
  • Nice all round summer mornings, afternoons and nights
  • Texas University women's volleyball team
  • Wrong Hilton
  • Trolleys
  • Diners
  • Amazingly friendly service
  • Mike the waiter/ beatboxer 
  • Waikiki Beach
  • Grocery shopping
  • Gym
  • ESPN NBA everyday 
  • Urban Outfitters
  • Sephora
  • Kualoa Range
  • ATV Tour
  • Jungle Expedition
  • God of War
  • Jurassic Park
  • Lost
  • Gym
  • Ala Moana Shopping Centre
  • Nordstorm
  • Milano Blahnik
  • Cheeseburger
  • Tenpanyaki
  • Justin the passionate Tenpanyaki chef
  • Leonard the spanish teacher/ chess player
  • Leonard's 76th birthday
  • Zumiez
  • Stoners at Zumiez
  • Intense Chess Tournament
  • Strongest chess player loves his fruits
  • Manifest Bar
  • Gin and Tonic
  • Aussie Aussie Aussie 
  • Jordan, John, Mike, Irwin the Hawaiian locals
  • Lets get wasted babe
  • Princess Paul
  • White wasted Paul
  • $100 if you vomit in the taxi Paul
  • Vomit in hotel toilet Paul
  • Vomit in hotel sink River
  • Hangover
  • Wake up
  • Still hangover
  • Waikiki Beach
  • Shaved ice cream
  • Nap on the beach
  • No Strings Attached
  • Room service
  • Alamo
  • Yay car
  • Driving on the left side
  • Laniakea Beach
  • Wrong Beach
  • Turtle Beach
  • North to East drive 
  • Lanikai Beach
  • Lanikai Beach
  • Lanky Beach
  • Puffs
  • Waikele Outlets
  • Yay weed
  • Joints from here on 
  • Best shaved ice in a pineapple experience
  • Longest street in Honululu
  • Hanauma Bay
  • Cloudy
  • Last minute shopping
  • Withdraw more money
  • Zumiez
  • Girlfriend's make up want list
  • Nars
  • Asian store with cheap awesome food
  • Balcony sunset sessions
  • Summer nights high walks
  • Hardcore munchies
  • Hardcore munchies round 2
  • Hardcore munchies room service
  • Vinyls
  • Diamond Head Crater
  • Hottest day to do a hike
  • Exercise all the munchies away
  • Last day, cry

20150303

7.

"You're crazy, you make things up. You believe what you want to believe and that's it, that's your reality and nobody else's."

14th of February 2015, 2.39pm

20150222

Crash

This is probably one of the worst experiences i've had with drugs. Seeing someone i love so much have no control over their body was one of the most scariest moments of my entire life.
You think that you have control over the situation and everything can simply stop.
Then when it does stop and he says to you that he thought he was dead and that he was trapped.

Somewhere in the past year i started to abuse drugs. I'm not denying it, It made me feel better, it made me feel somewhat alive. It made things more fun.


But it had to get to this point to rock me back to reality.
It's all fun and games until you directly experience a body without a soul.